another dedication to dato' haji ahmad (my abah)

IN THE NAME OF ALLAH

Mata tua yang memandang aku itu, Gundah...Pudar..
Ia tak mahu bilang apa yang mengcengkam jiwa usangnya..
Biar katanya biar

Wahai Ayahanda Berhentilah walau sebentar dan renungkan mata ku yang melaut.
Khabarkan yang jujur dan ujar 
Apa menyerahmu?

Wahai Ayahanda 
bercukuplah mengagah tulang rapuh mu,aku kan lemah mu, berikan jerihmu..kisahkan penat mu..aku mahu tahu

Mata tua yang bagai ada sakti dewa dewi itu..Harus senyum
Dipukaukan aku nan terus terpana dan terdiamkan...
Biar katanya biar 

Wahai Ayahanda 
Bisikkan nan walau sekali, izinkan aku menumpangkan bahu berikan aku seperca dari beban kamu..

Wahai ayahanda 
Lihatkanlah aku berlari kini
Melompat tinggi
Setiapnya kerna kau tak pernah pergi

Apa masih ingat lagi,
Aku suka lari-lari
Kau bagaikan tak peduli
Ku biar kau patah hati
Apa masih tidak lupa
Tenking jerit sama-sama
Makan tak mahu semeja
Sahabat lebih berharga
Apa mampu kau sudikan
Ampun maafku ku sujudkan
Bisa tidak kau teruskan
Ku sesat kau tunjuk jalan
Apa layak aku bagi..
Tak terbalas sampai mati..
Kau sungguh yang paling tinggi 
Istana mu..
Syurga Nanti..
Ayahanda Beta...Kekasih Beta..

saya sayang ABAH saya

IN THE NAME OF ALLAH..THE MOST MERCIFUL

when it comes to family...the sensitiveness in me was at the very high peak and that was undeniable..i could cry when heard abah's coughing...i could cried if i heard my lil brother have a problem...i just ..i don't know..it actually came by nature...and thank u Allah for granted me with the most wonderful and greatest family ever...Alhamdulillah...

well.. it happened to me again..i mean the crying part la..its when i called my abah and heard he's voice was changing like a very sick man..and  i fell like wanna fly back to where he was at that moment..according to mak's story..abah kena infection in her right ear..when i heard that..i already known that...he's suffering from FUNGUS...

the day that i should pick him up at the airport after he arrived safely from Kuching..i quickly bring him to the hospital and the very 'drama' abah was he didnt wan to step down from car since he was afraid of the doctor...

it was funny moment actually..but i have to make like nothing happened even i was laughing hilariously in my heart...abah u r super lawak.

so..i called my abang saudara ( what we called it in english anyway,...ahahah who cares btw...its my blog)..Abg Zul..he's the specialist of ENT at the hospital Sultanah Bahiyah and he said he could help him..so the next day i bring abah ...and met Abg zul...

i dont know what exactly Ab zul did to abah..but when abah step out from the treatment room..he's smiling
and that's was enough for me..im happy when abah is happy


the morale of the story: no matter what your abah ( father) look like..i mean..even he was at the very worst of himself...please remind yourselves...you will never ever have the same abah anymore..


THANK YOU ABAH FOR YOUR UNCONDITIONAL LOVE TO US ALL THESE WHILE..you are super hero..



word of the day :
ABAH:  father